it happened after ms lydia talked to me and after i left, my feelings inside boiled that i was burdened with the expectations i had on myself- to meet others expectations.
is it my fault that i couldnt get good grades? is it my fault that i cant be the best person for myself? is there a way i can be someone who i can be actually proud of?
because i feel that no matter what i do, i cant be someone who can live up to expectations because i have these limits. did i choose to have these limits? if i did, then why am i struggling? did i deserve to suffer under my own hand? what did i do to come at this point….
Let me tell what a sweet cinnamon roll Anthony Mackie is at the Civil War premiere in Singapore:
- he took his time talking, interacting, signing autographs and taking selfies.
- there was a barricade specially for media and then the fans behind the media. He jumped over the barricade, walked past the media to go over to the fans (who obviously lost their shit cause they never expected it)
- I was on the second floor looking down, and he was already at the stage when he doubled all the way back, parted the security keeping the fans back and took the escalator up to greet his fans on the second floor. (I have a video of this!!)
- a deaf fan, 15 year old fan, and her interpreter was on stage with him. Before she went down the stage, he sign to her to say she’s beautiful and thank you.
